Ramnaresh Sarwan insists he is no hurry to return to the West Indies team and will see out the season with Leicestershire.
The batsman has not played for his country since July last year, and he says criticism from a member of the Windies coaching set-up left him drained of confidence.
Since joining Leicestershire he has hit two centuries and two fifties, leading to speculation he may be recalled to international duty, but he says he owes the Foxes and will not walk away.
"Mentally I was broken down, not from the stress of playing, it's just certain individuals have drained me mentally," he told the BBC,
"It took a toll on my confidence and the way I play. Everything went away
"I need to play a full season to find my feet and I owe Leicestershire because they've invested in me.
"I'm big on principle and when I was in the dust being kicked by my own people I was given an opportunity by this club and I will not forsake that or betray anyone.
"I don't want to find myself in a situation where I was two years ago, where I couldn't have fun.
"My happiness is utmost and the most important thing to me. I want to stay focused and forget about what has gone before.
"At one point I didn't know which was my back foot and which was my front foot. Now I'm much better, more precise with my movements, everything crystal clear in my head."
